Trooper Blog 7: Waiting to Hang My Helmet

I guess I just haven't wanted to remember what was going on... it was a weird deal, let me tell you. But if I don't keep up the illusion that I think my life is awesome and important, then I'll ... I don't know... Turn back into a pumpkin and you guys would have to find your own semi entertaining life commentary. Sad for you.

I loved my ship.

My ship was awesome.


My Ship is gone.



I haven't been sleeping normally since I haven't been on my Ship... my old ship.

I slept under a table in the Mess Hall of the Lusankya. It's not my ship, I'm not Barb, and I wasn't familiar with the actual layout so it never occurred to me to ask if there was a bed to sleep in. But the flickering tube lights felt familiar and a little comforting. I doubt I would have slept better in a plush palace penthouse.

But this verse is filled with terribly kind people. And it's really absurd how nice they are to me considering the fact that I am a huge bitchface. I think it's because I was with Luke and Barb. People like them. They have the Force.

The people who saved us? Kiti, Obi, and Anakin.



I got there and got some crackers. I just had to settle my stomach. THANKS OBI WAN!

I was a little nervous... I just didn't want to sleep alone. And in comes my Barb... totally sharing her bed and not letting me sleep alone. I haven't slept in the same bed all night with someone in A VERY long time. I didn't even mind Bruin.

And no, nothing happened.

*gives a minute for the straight men to flush the thought from their minds*

Anyway... I slept for ages and it was just really nice.

I found out the next that they shipped Carl off to Kenya.

CARL! I MISS YOU! I'M GLAD THAT I SAVED YOU FROM THAT VAN!

YOU'RE MAH BOI, CARL!



Yeah Carl. Yeah you will.

Sucky stuff happens though. I love my Barb, but she got sickly And that really sucks.
She still let me sleep half the night with her so I wouldn't be consciously alone.



But since she was sickly, Luke took her to where she could be treated ... which I'm glad he did.

.........But I woke up in the middle of the night and realized that I was alone.

It must be the atmosphere but Anakin had it right when he slept under the bed. It's a very safe feeling place.




But it's been a very confusing day.
Shara met a very scary individual. She brought him over when I asked her to come check out Barb's illness. Ummm.... That's not happening again.

Ugh... writing these things always makes me want to be a Mean Girl. Who wants to cry?

And no... I don't want Siege. Not at all. He is a verbal sparring partner. That's it. You want wedding invitations? Talk to Navaar. *obscene gesture*